Sunday, March 20, 2011

Kiss my ass, Diabetes...

Hmmm, this could be an interesting title for a book about my blog. I really like my blog title "Keep smiling through the rain" because that's basically what I've been doing for the past 6 weeks. However, "Kiss my ass, Diabetes" could be more of a humorous angle for a storyline.
My mother's favorite phrase was "Kiss my ass". She had used the phrase in every sentence about cell phones, something on the news or even about the weather. I am not kidding. I could only imagine if her and I had a conversation right now about this, we'd be laughing our asses off. My mother was a fighter with her battle with cancer for years and until the last year of her life, she kept fighting while her body grew weaker. Yes, she did occasionally told Cancer to kiss her ass more times than I can count on both hands.
I am proud to be my mother's daughter.

Kiss my ass, Diabetes.

Thanks Mom. I love you.♥

Friday, March 18, 2011

You look different....

Ever since my drastic weight loss from my diagnosis, I have slowly gained some weight back on my frame but I still get the occasional, "Did you lose some weight?"
Of course at that point I start my explanation and by the time I have finished my weary tale for the millionth time, the questions start pouring out about my illness.
I know people are curious (okay nosy) but I am the curious type as well so I try not to hold a grudge. The first few times launching into my story was okay but now I am at the point where I want to scream at the next person who asks, "You look different..did you lose some weight?"

Thursday, March 10, 2011

One Month.....

As I was preparing my breakfast this morning and getting ready to do my morning blood sugar and insulin, I realized that today it's been an entire month since my diagnosis. I still have flashbacks of the day I was rushed to the hospital by my husband. I was so weak, he had to carry me down our front steps to our car. The brightness of the sun was too much for my eyes. I don't remember the less than 5 minute drive to the hospital(I know my husband was driving as quickly as possible) but remember being put in a wheelchair at the ER entrance and being in an exam room while I was being poked and prodded by nurses and doctors. I remember being conscious at some point when I asked my husband what was wrong with me. I'll never forget the scared look on his face when he told me I had Diabetes.
When I finally started to get more and more alert in the ICU, it finally hit me and I just cried. The doctors who told my husband and later to me if we had waited one more day before I had gotten treatment, I most likely could have died after slipping into a Diabetic coma. I was very lucky and very relieved that my instincts had told me to get to the hospital. My blood sugar was over a 1000 when I was brought in and it's a miracle I hadn't gone into a coma. My mom was watching over me, I'm sure and told God that it wasn't my time yet. I still have two daughters that needed their mother. I didn't want my girls to grow up without me. I lost my mother.I didn't want my girls to lose their mother.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Out with the old, in with the new....

I didn't realize how much willpower I have with this new change in my life. For years, I was a Pepsi Cola addict. Not diet Pepsi (never could stand the stuff, even now) but regular Pepsi in a tall glass filled with ice. That was my "coffee" in the morning for years to jump start my morning. Oh let's face it, I drank the stuff all day long. I should've invested in Pepsi stock, I'd probably be a rich woman by now with my contributions to the company by purchasing AND drink a 2 liter bottle in a course of 24 hours. Every single day for too many countless years.
Now when I look at any Pepsi ads or walk by the displays in the supermarket, I cringe. Yes, I can barely look at it because in my mind, that was part of the poison I had in my body when I was deathly ill with the out of control blood sugar.
Yes folks, I was a Pepsiholic who had to quit cold turkey.

I drink Orange Juice in the mornings now with my breakfast. Never really ate what one would consider a "healthy" breakfast for years. Until now. Congratulations Dad, you were right, my bad eating and drinking habits finally caught up to me.

Now I have traded the Pepsi for Crystal Light Iced Tea.

Monday, March 7, 2011


I am slowly getting my independence back with this new lifestyle. I had taken my first baby steps in going back to work last week. For security and precautionary issues, I never leave the house without my testing meter and insulin. In my mind, it is like being naked without it. For example, people feel naked if their cell phones or wallets are not on their person. It's a way of life dealing with the challenges of having Diabetes.